Not sure

In my old slut days I needed guys to validate my existence. The best way to do that was letting them do what they want with me. Sounds easy but I was a really terrible cocksucker. It just didn’t come natural. Guys would use my tits, ass, and puss. But sometimes I would hear them complain that I was shitty at sucking cock. I had to do something.
My broth3r Rod is huge. I caught him masterbating one night to a playboy magazine. I threatened to tell our bitchmom unless he did what he wanted.
He relented and my sis*ter and me had a huge dick to practice on. I learned the subtle nuances. Deepthroating fast if someone wanted to cum quick. Ass licking and ball sucking to normal horny guys. The one finger, over the top stroking and lick job for others. My s!ster and I became the best cocksuckers in the town.
Well, you all know the tale of how Ivan changed me from town slut to happy mom of twins. But something happened along the way. Ron quit dating to focus on his work. We found out later he was marrying his boss. A MAN. They are happy, I actually was the best man[person]. But our selfishness turn him gay? His husband is great, and we all have fun at family events. But with my twins and Sarah38dds boy, I can’t help but wonder. He’s the best godfather anyone has ever had. Did I cheat myself out of being a godmother? He seems content, but did Sarah and I screw things up.