Love

I don't know about the rest of you nice people, but I have absolutely no luck in relationships. Women were a disaster, and men I need to trust at least a little, before I let them in. And I mean that physically and emotionally. I know I am not easy to tolerate, as I am ADD and bipolar. But I don't lie nor am I untrustworthy. I seem to have had only one chance at love or a long lasting relationship. I liked him, he liked me, he accepted me and he was attracted and turned on by me. I loved dressing sexy for him and was perfectly comfortable. I trusted him. But was ultimately scared of my love for another man. Yet since I was with him, I have not touched a woman nor wanted to. It is my biggest regret in life. I wish I had been honest with myself. I miss him every day. I wonder and fantasize how my life would have been. I have always preferred a monogamous relationship. I only cheated once and it was with him. I wish I had accepted my desire for men when I was young and come out and been true to myself. I know I would have a killer wardrobe. As many times I, for whatever reason, threw out my clothes. If by any possibility which is probably 0%, if anyone knows Steven Hohm tell him he was the love of my life.