Self Imposed Chastity
So for the last year and a half, I have been trying to practice self imposed chastity. I don't wear a device, but the rule is basically I don't ejaculate without my wife being involved. I actually started a form of this year's ago where if I am at home with my wife, I only ejaculate with her. When I started, I worked a job that required almost weekly travel. When I traveled, I would sit in my hotel room, surf porn and jerk off, I used to do that when I was home too. I finally decided that my porn addiction was impacting my physical relationship with my wife and without physical intimacy, it is hard to maintain a relationship. So back then I just started not ejaculating when I was home, I would still edge myself though, but not cum.
About a year and a half ago I changed jobs to one where I am home most of the time. I have done about 3 weeks of travel in that time. So I made a concious decision at that time to do my best to continue the rule of not ejaculating without my wifes involvement. There are several reasons that I wanted to do this. First as mentioned, not jerking off forces me to be put in effort in my relationship to make her want sex with me. Second it is kind of a trial run for asking my wife to put me in chastity. I want to make sure that I could handle long stretches without masturbation. The third reason is kind of selfish, when we have sex after not cumming for 14 days, 21 days etc I have very little control over the orgasm, produce huge amounts of cum and the orgasm is amazing. Part of my plan is to frustrate my wife enough that she will be open to having sex with another guy who can satisfy her. Don't worry, I always go down on her first and lick her to at least 2 orgasms, but intercourse has been lasting from cum on entry, to maybe 5 minutes max. Most times I cum within 2-3 min. It is so humiliating to cum before you have even fully entered your wife's pussy. It is also very hard to hold back because as soon as I enter her, I start thinking about licking her clean afterward and that always gets me (and I do lick her clean every time). I have also begun making comments and jokes about not lasting long. She absolutely loves getting pounded hard doggy style where your balls slap up against her clit, she has amazing orgasms this way. The next step is to try to convince her that she deserves a real good pounding and that we should bring in another man for that.
As far as going without, I think you get better at it as you go along and honestly at this point, I am not sure that I want to go back to jacking off daily. Early on, I would get very horny after a week or so. A few times after a couple of weeks without ejaculating I sort of cheated by dry humping my wife till I orgasmed in my panties while in bed. (Yes, I wear panties to bed every night under my pajamas, my wife knows this and puts up with this. She doesn't get turned on by it and actually says nothing about it.) I decided that I was cheating by doing this since it was not her decision for me to cum. I still dry hump her, but not to orgasm. I have come to enjoy a good dry hump till I get close then just stop and leave myself hanging. I am to the point now where I really don't even start thinking about it till after a week or so. I do still play with my penis, usually in the morning when I wake up with wood, I will jack it for minute or two, but that is it.
For the 2018 year, I have been tracking my orgasms and the time in between them and as of today, 12/15, I have had 20 orgasms this year. My longest drought was 50 days (that was hard) and the shortest time between orgasms was about 8 hours. The 8 hour one was one night I came to bed and my wife was horny so I licked her to a couple of orgasms then went to slid my cock in and started cumming about half way into her pussy. I apologized, licked her clean then we went to sleep. She woke me up the next morning still horny (I wonder why) and we went for another round. This time I lasted probably 8 mins and I am pretty sure she orgasmed from intercourse (which is pretty rare between my small penis and quick trigger).
I have cheated twice in 2018, once on a business trip (this was my most recent video) and a second time when my wife was gone overnight. I did not jerk off in the traditional sense though I used a vibrator in my ass while rubbing my flaccid penis to orgasm (see my sissy clit rub vids). I have done a great deal of anal masturbation, I would like to learn to cum simply from anal stimulation so that I could have some way off getting off in chastity if I really needed it. I have had anal orgasms, but have not ejaculated without at least some stimulation of my little penis.
So to be clear at this point, my wife does not know that I have been doing this. I told her one time 3 to 4 years back that I had stopped orgasming without her when we were home together, but I don't think she believed me. Since I have stopped traveling I am certain that she think I am masturbating still.
A break down of how I have cum in 2018
Hand Job: 8
Intercourse: 9
Masturbation: 2
Blow Job: 1 (Birthday treat, I got to cum in her mouth, but she snowballed it back to me, best orgasm of the year)
So if you have actually bothered to read this, I would love to hear your thoughts:
Am I being selfish? Some say that we shouldn't masturbate and that we should only cum from sex with our wife, but by not masturbating it I am quite certain that I take away pleasure from my wife by not lasting more than a minute or two. However, my attentiveness to my wife has increased significantly. If you don't pay attention to a woman, she doesn't want to have sex with you. Knowing that my only way to orgasm is by making my wife want to have sex with me causes me to work hard to make her happy. As they say: "Happy Wife, Happy Life". I bring her flowers every few weeks, try to help keep the dishes and kitchen clean etc. I truly believe I am a better husband in most aspects this way.
I am considering a New Year's resolution to open up to my wife about this. I have mentioned the idea of her with another man many times, but she always brushes it off saying she doesn't want that. So, should I ask her to make if official and lock me up? Even after one year it still kind of scares me but I think I am ready. My fear is that she just locks me up and forgets about me. Should I re-approach her about cuckolding? This has been my biggest fantasy forever. I am actually fairly sure that she did cuckold me very early on in our marriage with a friend, but that is a whole other story. I know something happened, I am just not sure how far it went. It is kind of weird that I now don't want to go back to masturbating regularly which means that I will likely never be able to go long enough to truly satisfy my wife so I now truly feel like we need a bull to give her the kind of sex she loves and deserves.
About a year and a half ago I changed jobs to one where I am home most of the time. I have done about 3 weeks of travel in that time. So I made a concious decision at that time to do my best to continue the rule of not ejaculating without my wifes involvement. There are several reasons that I wanted to do this. First as mentioned, not jerking off forces me to be put in effort in my relationship to make her want sex with me. Second it is kind of a trial run for asking my wife to put me in chastity. I want to make sure that I could handle long stretches without masturbation. The third reason is kind of selfish, when we have sex after not cumming for 14 days, 21 days etc I have very little control over the orgasm, produce huge amounts of cum and the orgasm is amazing. Part of my plan is to frustrate my wife enough that she will be open to having sex with another guy who can satisfy her. Don't worry, I always go down on her first and lick her to at least 2 orgasms, but intercourse has been lasting from cum on entry, to maybe 5 minutes max. Most times I cum within 2-3 min. It is so humiliating to cum before you have even fully entered your wife's pussy. It is also very hard to hold back because as soon as I enter her, I start thinking about licking her clean afterward and that always gets me (and I do lick her clean every time). I have also begun making comments and jokes about not lasting long. She absolutely loves getting pounded hard doggy style where your balls slap up against her clit, she has amazing orgasms this way. The next step is to try to convince her that she deserves a real good pounding and that we should bring in another man for that.
As far as going without, I think you get better at it as you go along and honestly at this point, I am not sure that I want to go back to jacking off daily. Early on, I would get very horny after a week or so. A few times after a couple of weeks without ejaculating I sort of cheated by dry humping my wife till I orgasmed in my panties while in bed. (Yes, I wear panties to bed every night under my pajamas, my wife knows this and puts up with this. She doesn't get turned on by it and actually says nothing about it.) I decided that I was cheating by doing this since it was not her decision for me to cum. I still dry hump her, but not to orgasm. I have come to enjoy a good dry hump till I get close then just stop and leave myself hanging. I am to the point now where I really don't even start thinking about it till after a week or so. I do still play with my penis, usually in the morning when I wake up with wood, I will jack it for minute or two, but that is it.
For the 2018 year, I have been tracking my orgasms and the time in between them and as of today, 12/15, I have had 20 orgasms this year. My longest drought was 50 days (that was hard) and the shortest time between orgasms was about 8 hours. The 8 hour one was one night I came to bed and my wife was horny so I licked her to a couple of orgasms then went to slid my cock in and started cumming about half way into her pussy. I apologized, licked her clean then we went to sleep. She woke me up the next morning still horny (I wonder why) and we went for another round. This time I lasted probably 8 mins and I am pretty sure she orgasmed from intercourse (which is pretty rare between my small penis and quick trigger).
I have cheated twice in 2018, once on a business trip (this was my most recent video) and a second time when my wife was gone overnight. I did not jerk off in the traditional sense though I used a vibrator in my ass while rubbing my flaccid penis to orgasm (see my sissy clit rub vids). I have done a great deal of anal masturbation, I would like to learn to cum simply from anal stimulation so that I could have some way off getting off in chastity if I really needed it. I have had anal orgasms, but have not ejaculated without at least some stimulation of my little penis.
So to be clear at this point, my wife does not know that I have been doing this. I told her one time 3 to 4 years back that I had stopped orgasming without her when we were home together, but I don't think she believed me. Since I have stopped traveling I am certain that she think I am masturbating still.
A break down of how I have cum in 2018
Hand Job: 8
Intercourse: 9
Masturbation: 2
Blow Job: 1 (Birthday treat, I got to cum in her mouth, but she snowballed it back to me, best orgasm of the year)
So if you have actually bothered to read this, I would love to hear your thoughts:
Am I being selfish? Some say that we shouldn't masturbate and that we should only cum from sex with our wife, but by not masturbating it I am quite certain that I take away pleasure from my wife by not lasting more than a minute or two. However, my attentiveness to my wife has increased significantly. If you don't pay attention to a woman, she doesn't want to have sex with you. Knowing that my only way to orgasm is by making my wife want to have sex with me causes me to work hard to make her happy. As they say: "Happy Wife, Happy Life". I bring her flowers every few weeks, try to help keep the dishes and kitchen clean etc. I truly believe I am a better husband in most aspects this way.
I am considering a New Year's resolution to open up to my wife about this. I have mentioned the idea of her with another man many times, but she always brushes it off saying she doesn't want that. So, should I ask her to make if official and lock me up? Even after one year it still kind of scares me but I think I am ready. My fear is that she just locks me up and forgets about me. Should I re-approach her about cuckolding? This has been my biggest fantasy forever. I am actually fairly sure that she did cuckold me very early on in our marriage with a friend, but that is a whole other story. I know something happened, I am just not sure how far it went. It is kind of weird that I now don't want to go back to masturbating regularly which means that I will likely never be able to go long enough to truly satisfy my wife so I now truly feel like we need a bull to give her the kind of sex she loves and deserves.
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