Not enough people are actually listening..so here.

I had "CLOSURE" sex with the creature in the video finally after 5 months....After which she admitted that she held out to give it to me cus she knew it would free me mentally......Then she asked me for the 900th time why sex was the thing that could grant me closure.......  Its cus after years of being cheated on and knowing, forgiving, and finally expecting it and lies about it, sex became a weapon, and\or tool.   the whole time I was helping her get GREAT in bed, I was getting addicted to being desired........ But even now I fuck women and they feel that I held back...... if there is a women out there who can take my medium sized dick, and get fucked like its porn but with a kindness similar to a first date fuck.  Speak out.  Also I have real problems when girls ask me to choke them.   I was raised by a women and I had to be trained by the one in the videos to even put hands on her head while eating me.    if u like good dick I got it, but if u like it rough, I have to be comfortable with u first so not on the first fuck.  This is not a chat site or where I post poetry I just had to write it out where noeone would see or care and just let it out.