Sex
Please come up and spank me sometime. X
I would love to make love to a woman and make lots of babies. XXX I have tried being a woman and have been in a confused state for a very long time. I have had trouble being a man because of what happened to me as a c***d. You can guess what that was about. I was 4 when it started and it continued until my *************. I could never be my parents and especially not my father and that was when I realized having a penis was wrong for me and even having a vagina was still going to be problematic for me but it was the lesser of two evils I suppose. I have had breast implants done and I still have a penis and testicles, but with all the hormones I have had getting what I suppose amounts to an erection is difficult. I have had sex with men and women and have always take the submissive role as going on top really fucked up my head, big time. Memories of my c***dhood. I have recently met a Mistress who has been counselling me in gender and sexuality, and she has told me with absolute honesty and conviction that I should try being a man and what happened to me as a c***d was not my fault. I am very worried that what ever resemblance of any sanity I have left may be destroyed by doing this however I realise she is right and I must face up to the plain fact that I can overcome my own guilt and finally free myself from my self imposed mental prison. I cannot begin to know the consequences of these actions, however I would not be true to myself if I did face them down and try to begin to find myself in a loving, caring and yes sexual relationship with a woman. Now I have o find a woman who will understand me and help and lead me to being a man. It is giving up my feelings and emotions to her so I can finally surrender myself to love, as I realise in order to be loved one got to be able to love, and the ability to love has been the emotion that has always eluded me. The ability to have sexual intercourse with a woman scares the hell out of me, let me be frank here that I truly do not know what is going to happen. I come with a hell of a lot of baggage already and this kind of sexual intercourse will open a Pandora's Box which will never be able to be closed again. My Dominatrix partner is adamant that this course of action is now the only way forward for me and I have totally come round to her way of thinking as for me this really is the last throw of the dice. I am not in a sexual relationship with my Dom, it is totally Mistress and Submissive. I could not even to begin to contemplate any sexual activity there, it would not be right. I have been more than truthful here, I have laid my hell which is my life wide open for you all to see. I f you feel you can help then that help will be cherished by me. I give you me a blank canvas to do whatever you want with. I am yours. Antony to Sarah to Antony.
I would love to make love to a woman and make lots of babies. XXX I have tried being a woman and have been in a confused state for a very long time. I have had trouble being a man because of what happened to me as a c***d. You can guess what that was about. I was 4 when it started and it continued until my *************. I could never be my parents and especially not my father and that was when I realized having a penis was wrong for me and even having a vagina was still going to be problematic for me but it was the lesser of two evils I suppose. I have had breast implants done and I still have a penis and testicles, but with all the hormones I have had getting what I suppose amounts to an erection is difficult. I have had sex with men and women and have always take the submissive role as going on top really fucked up my head, big time. Memories of my c***dhood. I have recently met a Mistress who has been counselling me in gender and sexuality, and she has told me with absolute honesty and conviction that I should try being a man and what happened to me as a c***d was not my fault. I am very worried that what ever resemblance of any sanity I have left may be destroyed by doing this however I realise she is right and I must face up to the plain fact that I can overcome my own guilt and finally free myself from my self imposed mental prison. I cannot begin to know the consequences of these actions, however I would not be true to myself if I did face them down and try to begin to find myself in a loving, caring and yes sexual relationship with a woman. Now I have o find a woman who will understand me and help and lead me to being a man. It is giving up my feelings and emotions to her so I can finally surrender myself to love, as I realise in order to be loved one got to be able to love, and the ability to love has been the emotion that has always eluded me. The ability to have sexual intercourse with a woman scares the hell out of me, let me be frank here that I truly do not know what is going to happen. I come with a hell of a lot of baggage already and this kind of sexual intercourse will open a Pandora's Box which will never be able to be closed again. My Dominatrix partner is adamant that this course of action is now the only way forward for me and I have totally come round to her way of thinking as for me this really is the last throw of the dice. I am not in a sexual relationship with my Dom, it is totally Mistress and Submissive. I could not even to begin to contemplate any sexual activity there, it would not be right. I have been more than truthful here, I have laid my hell which is my life wide open for you all to see. I f you feel you can help then that help will be cherished by me. I give you me a blank canvas to do whatever you want with. I am yours. Antony to Sarah to Antony.
7年前
