Can’t stop

I know what I’m doing is wrong but I can’t stop! I responded to a CL post ,saying something about warming up frozen pipes. I’m thinking ,ya I could go for a BJ right. He sounded sane and his wife was out for a while so agreed to stop by. When I showed up I knew immediately he was a alright guy. 58 yrs old I’m a little older. We talked a bit when he reached over and touched my dick through my pants. It was electric is all I can say. He kept telling me how much he wanted me. All of a sudden he told me ,no commanded me to remove my clothes. As I was removing them he was kissing my body all over. When I was naked he started licking my stomach then told me to turn around and at that moment I felt his tongue go right into my ass. It was like I was under his spell as he was now probing my asshole while jerking me off. (He still has his clothes on). His finger is somehow entered my ass and I have to tell you it was feeling real good too. He then told me to sit down on his couch and starts taking off his clothes,not that he had much on. As I’m leaned back he just goes down on me and exploring my ass again. Im starting to feel it,you know that load that’s coming from your toes. I’m telling him I’m close and he picks up the pace but I’m pleading for him to stop because after I cum I lose all sexual feelings. At the last second he stops but it s to late. Fuck I’m cumming and he grabs my cock hard but cum is oosing out. He’s thinking I’m done and stands up and starts to put his shirt on. At that moment I look down and see his cock for the first time,it’s like 6” and fat ,real fat. He looks down and says ,do you suck? I put my finger up and waved him over. He moved close and I’m about to put this in my mouth and the truth is I want it. It barely fits and that doesn’t stop him from climbing up and immediately starts face fucking me. I’m taken back as to how aggressive he is but it’s like I’m under his spell! He’s fucking my mouth so hard and forceful I realize I have tears in my eyes as he was sometimes gagging me. He finally stops to give me a break and a bottle of water that I really needed. He s now sitting back and I slid to the floor and put my mouth on his cock again. I could nt believe how long he’s lasted when he stars moaning loud while putting his hands behind my head saying don’t stop. Having mixed emotions as I’m feeling good I’m getting him off but also he’s going to cum in my mouth,which I’m not ready for. It’s not much longer I start to taste a little cum ,not to bad I guess and start going faster and faster and then I felt a huge spurt and another and another. I took it all ,swallowing some the rest spilling from my mouth. I just relaxed a bit licking his balls watching his cock deflate. When I got up we talked a bit and then I left. I know it’s so wrong but I’m hard now reminiscing this and envision him cumming in my mouth again. Again it’s like I’m under his spell. Yes it’s wrong and I’m a fag or a cocksucker. Truelly a horny fucked up guy.