Straight, but obsessed with big cocks...

I have always considered myself straight, but I have had a lifelong fascination/obsession with big cocks. As a guy with a small penis I was very sexually timid as a young man. I also had a string of unfaithful girlfriends which fed my thoughts of sexual inadequacy. At first I hated it, but I eventually grew to embrace it. Now I find it impossible to have an orgasm without seeing a guy with a big cock fucking a woman hard, or imagining one of my exes with her well hung lover.