Giving in

I really can't take care of myself. *sighs* I accidentally lost a lil more weight. I look as fat as I ever have but I can’t break thru the 300lb mark. v.v currently at 290lbs :( I need a feeder to just come k**nap me and just feed me to immobility. Let me fill up an entire room with my blubber, it's all I'm good for is to grow, my flab spreading and oozing across the floor. I feel it is my fat to just grow forever, why fight destiny?