What would it have been like?

Something I've been wondering about is what would it have been like to have been knowingly watched having sex when I was a teenager? Many of the men I've gotten to tell me their early sexual experiences had been watched having sex by an older man. For the most part they had no problems or regrets about the experience.  Would I be the same way?  Or would I be one of those who even decades later feel violated? I am not down playing that.


Would the older man get undressed and jerk off while watching me have sex?  Or would he remain dressed and then jerk off later? Would he like what he saw or think it was boring. Would he tell me what positions to be in?  Would he tell me I did a good job and that he wanted to watch me again?