I'm wearing new Vanity Fair nylon panties and

The parcel I've been waiting for finally arrived this week! I was seeing quite a few wearers of full cut nylon panties.These remind me of my mothers pantie/ girdle drawer that I used to sneak into starting at around 5 yrs. old. The feel of the shiny soft lycra and lace with the suspender straps and clips excited my little self. I now have several pair of the most comfortable panties I have ever had plus I ordered a full nylon slip.I had not even begun to masturbate yet but I knew these garments were sexually exciting. Along with all the finery there was the most heavenly aroma! There in the back of the drawer was this yellow box with a jar of powder that was the source of the smell that filled my nose and permeated all the items within the drawer. The aroma was of course Massengills Powder!!! Next to that special jar was something inside a little bag. Upon opening it I discovered her douche bag with the hose and 2 different nozzles. I thought she had hidden these items away because little boys didn't need to know about such things. Well that didn't slow me down much. I could just imagine how she used such things and how it must have felt. This was the start of my becoming a secret sissy. I recall many times my father calling me a sissy and deep down I knew I WAS and I still AM ! I became interested in all things having to do with feminine hygiene, Kotex and Tampax, douche and enemas. With all the secrecy surrounding this stuff it just had to be nasty and I have always been into being as nasty as I could be. I recall coming home from school several times and the house smelled of the powder, This aroused me greatly. Thinking about her using the douche bag gave me chills of excitement.