Anxiety & bimbofication

I'm not a person that's particularly prone to anxiety, but I noticed that when I am stressed, anxious or panicky, that I start thinking about being on my knees with a cock in my mouth or in front of my face, especially since i've had to repeat 12th Grade 3 times in high-school

I guess it's like my go to happy place or something. It isn't something I really mean to do, but it feels comforting to think about. In my head, when I put my lips around a cock my troubles float away for the moment and I feel as if I'm in a place of comfort where I belong. It's self soothing in a way.

Does this happen to any of you? Is this even healthy? Like I said, I'm not really anxiety prone, but this happens every time.