Chronic masturbation

I masturbate a LOT. I do it more now (in my early 50's) than I did as a teenager! I frequently masturbate three or more times a day, most days of the week. It is not uncommon for me to spend an entire day engrossed in playing with myself. I have a small penis and I honestly think that has a lot to do with it. Many small guys I chat with also report masturbating more than they consider an average amount.

A running theme in my masturbation thoughts is the size of my penis. As can be seen from my images, videos and favourites, I am obsessed with being small. I keep myself meticulously free of pubic hair as I believe it highlights how small I am. It also makes me feel particularly "unmanly", which drives my thoughts more.

I have experienced cuckolding many times throughout my life, it defines me. Every time I masturbate my mind drifts back to discussions with ex-partners about their affairs, or mental images of the handful of times that I physically witnessed them being fucked by other, well hung, guys.

Masturbation for hours on end, "edging", is truly intense. The psychological and emotional build up is extraordinary. I frequently sob or cry a little with self pity/loathing when I cum. Then I almost immediately start again.

I have had lengthy discussions about all this with a psychologist. She (yes, SHE) wants me to try reducing the amount I masturbate, and to try directing my thoughts to more "healthy" ideas when I do.

NEVER! This is me! I have a little dick which I love to hate. Masturbation is the most important thing in my life.

(I am keen to hear people's thoughts on all this, very happy to chat if people are interested)