The fucked retrograde ejaculation...
Since last three years, I can't ejaculate... because I suffer from something called "retrograde ejaculation". What is it?. Maybe you never heared that term before...?. In that case... good for you!.
The retrograde ejaculation happens when there is a severe reduction or a total absence of cum during ejaculation: what happens is that the semen is gone to the bladder and is later expelled in the urine. In other words... the ejaculation is produced, but the semen flows "back" and inside -to the bladder- instead of out, as a normal cumshot. It causes me no pain -although my orgasms became intense and in certain times, "strange"- I only have the sensation of orgasm but I do not ejaculate as it's "normal"... unless I have something -a toy or a real cock- inside my ass. But I'll talk about this later...
This disfunction is caused by several reasons, but in my case is primarily due to the neurological damages produced by the diabetes. This caused me another issues, as an early erectile disfunction which became two or three years later, in practicly total impotence: now my little clit remains almost limp even during orgasm, it gets a bit erect, but I don't have erection enough to penetrate even a FleshLight, for example. Really, the retrograde ejaculation is not a real problem for me because I don't want to have sons... (I suspected from years ago I'm sterile also, although I don't have clinic confirmation of it) but I recognize it results very frustrating and humiliating for me.
Some CD friends told me that -as a sissy- this is even good for me. They use to say things like "you can orgasm as a woman", or "you are able to cum without staining, and you don't need to clean the creamy mess", or "the frustration and humiliation produced by this kind of dry orgasms will degrade you, and make you be a better sissy"... etc. But I'm not sure of this... As a result of this disfunction, my orgasms changed as the time passed too. They're more intense now, at the point of be a bit painful, it's a extrange feeling really. And I can't get used to it... it's very rare "to cum without cum".
At this point, you surely think: "then... you can't cum in any way?". Well, there is a way for me to cum and expell the jizz outside, and it is by the prostate milking procedure. When something (a dildo or a real cock) press hard my prostate, the cum flows naturally outside instead of inside, to the bladder. I use an specific prostate toy made by Rocks-off, a model called "Bad-boy"... it's a curved dildo designed specially for milking the prostate. When I insert it inside me, it opens my ass and the tip of the toy massages my prostate, pressing and squeezing it... then, when I do the "squeeze" with my buttocks and pubic muscles movement, the cream flows outwards. I got normal cumshots also inserting a conventional dildo in my ass, being pounded by my fuckingmachine, or a man.
Surely you think: "and that... doesn't it have a cure?". In fact, there is a treatment of retrograde ejaculation, it can be done with medicines like ephedrine or phenylpropanolamine, for example, however this treatment is not always effective. In my case, of course not, because my disfunction is caused by diabetes... which is incurable.
However, I only need to milk myself -or be milked- once a week. Despite of I never was too virile since I was a teenager... -I was rather weak and effeminate, in fact- I used to produce a considerable amount of sperm, but during these last years my little and atrophied balls produce less and less spunk. My cumshots passed to be from a jizz explode to a pathetic drooling squirt of a semi-transparent liquid... and today, not even: I need to milking myself to extract the cum.
Yes, it's pathetic... I know. And now this issue is part of my life as a sissy... condemned to ejac nevermore, unless be milked!!.
The retrograde ejaculation happens when there is a severe reduction or a total absence of cum during ejaculation: what happens is that the semen is gone to the bladder and is later expelled in the urine. In other words... the ejaculation is produced, but the semen flows "back" and inside -to the bladder- instead of out, as a normal cumshot. It causes me no pain -although my orgasms became intense and in certain times, "strange"- I only have the sensation of orgasm but I do not ejaculate as it's "normal"... unless I have something -a toy or a real cock- inside my ass. But I'll talk about this later...
This disfunction is caused by several reasons, but in my case is primarily due to the neurological damages produced by the diabetes. This caused me another issues, as an early erectile disfunction which became two or three years later, in practicly total impotence: now my little clit remains almost limp even during orgasm, it gets a bit erect, but I don't have erection enough to penetrate even a FleshLight, for example. Really, the retrograde ejaculation is not a real problem for me because I don't want to have sons... (I suspected from years ago I'm sterile also, although I don't have clinic confirmation of it) but I recognize it results very frustrating and humiliating for me.
Some CD friends told me that -as a sissy- this is even good for me. They use to say things like "you can orgasm as a woman", or "you are able to cum without staining, and you don't need to clean the creamy mess", or "the frustration and humiliation produced by this kind of dry orgasms will degrade you, and make you be a better sissy"... etc. But I'm not sure of this... As a result of this disfunction, my orgasms changed as the time passed too. They're more intense now, at the point of be a bit painful, it's a extrange feeling really. And I can't get used to it... it's very rare "to cum without cum".
At this point, you surely think: "then... you can't cum in any way?". Well, there is a way for me to cum and expell the jizz outside, and it is by the prostate milking procedure. When something (a dildo or a real cock) press hard my prostate, the cum flows naturally outside instead of inside, to the bladder. I use an specific prostate toy made by Rocks-off, a model called "Bad-boy"... it's a curved dildo designed specially for milking the prostate. When I insert it inside me, it opens my ass and the tip of the toy massages my prostate, pressing and squeezing it... then, when I do the "squeeze" with my buttocks and pubic muscles movement, the cream flows outwards. I got normal cumshots also inserting a conventional dildo in my ass, being pounded by my fuckingmachine, or a man.
Surely you think: "and that... doesn't it have a cure?". In fact, there is a treatment of retrograde ejaculation, it can be done with medicines like ephedrine or phenylpropanolamine, for example, however this treatment is not always effective. In my case, of course not, because my disfunction is caused by diabetes... which is incurable.
However, I only need to milk myself -or be milked- once a week. Despite of I never was too virile since I was a teenager... -I was rather weak and effeminate, in fact- I used to produce a considerable amount of sperm, but during these last years my little and atrophied balls produce less and less spunk. My cumshots passed to be from a jizz explode to a pathetic drooling squirt of a semi-transparent liquid... and today, not even: I need to milking myself to extract the cum.
Yes, it's pathetic... I know. And now this issue is part of my life as a sissy... condemned to ejac nevermore, unless be milked!!.
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