The Joy OF Crossdressing

I am a crossdresser and I don't do it because I want to be a woman. I do it because it turns me on sexually. When a woman dresses up in hot outfits it might turn he on because she knows how it will affect guys but, I don't think that having the clothes themselves usually makes her horny like it does a crossdresser. Most of the things that make me so horny to wear are just normal clothing that they wear and some of those things, like pantyhose, a lot of women don't even like to wear.
Being gay, when I do my hair in a feminine style, put on my makeup, glue on my breast forms, slip into a pair of sheer pantyhose and heels or boots, a sexy bra, panties and a short dress, the only thing on my mind is sex. They feel so hot and sexually stimulating on my body and it makes me feel so kinky. I can't imagine the clothing themselves affecting most woman in that way.
I don't know what it feel like to be a woman having sex but, I can't imagine anything as psychologically horny and kinky or as physically wonderful as having gay sex as a crossdresser.
I wish that I could be one of those beautiful sexy Shemales and live as a woman always but, again, not because I want to be a real woman. It's more like the ultimate crossdressing, living it full time and still being able to have gay sex with a man.
There is one thing I envy about women; they are able to get pregnant. It's not that I would want to actually be a woman and get pregnant. It's more like I think it would feel like the ultimate sex act to wonder if I had just been knocked up. When a "special" friend cums inside me, it always turns me on to imagine he might have just made me pregnant.
Some people might think I'm sick, but they don't need to feel sorry for me. I love it!

Riki