Am I out of my mind?

A few weeks ago I answered a post on ********** regarding trading pictures. We exchanged pics of our dicks and agreed to meet. I was a bit reluctant but he looked clean cut guy and we had a lot in common. You know both married and no sex,lol. When get together I find out that he just wants me to service him and I was ok with that. He immediately leads me into his bedroom and takes off his clothes . When I went to take off mine he says I don’t have to. He then asks me to just rub it a bit and it’s gett bigger and bigger. Next he says ok put your mouth on it and I do just that. He then says he can’t hold back and asks if he can cum in my mouth,wtf was I to say ,nothing and kept going and man did he cum.he got up fast and escorted me to the door. Oh well that was ok I guess. Two weeks go by and he’s asking to get together and then adds we can’t go to his house. I have a trailer for sale on the side of my house so i invited him over to look at the rv and to meet my wife thinking maybe .... My wife wasn’t feeling well so we watched the football game with some small talk and I think she liked a little bit. The game was over and he was about to leave so I asked him if he wanted to take some pics of the rv. I had three rum cokes so when we got inside I was horny as shit . I asked if he wanted a quick bj and he was hesitant but dropped his pants. He has a really nice cock 6” and thick. His skin is so smooth and clean I just had to lick his ass. It was insane. I had my thumb in his ass and my mouth over his cock. I’m enjoying this way to much. Maybe it was the rum but I wanted him to shoot in my mouth and boy did he. I loved it! I invited him back for the next playoff game. I’m so concerned that I can’t stop. I don’t consider myself gay but sucking cock I guess puts me in that category. Pleasing is most important to me. I just love to get him off usually not in my mouth but that’s changing. Any thoughts?