Email I sent my wife from deployment

I don't know what it was last night, but I really was missing you. I kept thinking about you and touching you and being with you. I haven't wanted to touch myself so bad since we've been apart...
I couldn't get out of my head thoughts of how I lay down and you kneel or stand over me. I kept thinking about you doing that with the iPad the next time we skype. I looked at that screen shot I took of you that time we were skyping and- oh, I ached for you.

But I managed to hold off, roll over, grit my teeth, and toss and turn through the night...

I was just taking a shower. I was washing after working out at the gym. All of me was so pumped. Without meaning to, I thought about you again... I was rubbing the soap all over my body... My hands washed over my chest and abs down to my cock. I was already hard. I started washing my cock- getting all slippery and soapy. I got so swollen and hot. I started thrusting my hips so I was fucking my soapy hand. It felt so good. I started breathing heavier... I needed some release. It got even more slippery as pre-cum began dripping out of me... I rubbed myself with long, tight, slow strokes... I started going faster. It felt so good after so long. I thought that I could just cum down the drain in the shower. No one would see me. No one would know.

See me. God, I wanted your eyes on me. I wanted to feel your gaze on my throbbing, hard, thick cock. I can feel you watch me and it makes me so crazy. I wanted that. I want you to watch me. I was a few seconds from not being able to stop. In just a blink I would have had no choice but to keep pumping myself until I squirted... I had to stop quick. I managed to hold off.

I switched the water to ice-cold and got my thoughts off of you. My cock calmed down. But I can't wait for long. I need you.