Depression is a real bitch

Have you ever felt so empty or to the point you just didn't care about anything that's how I feel everyday I feel like I get no type of the film is in my life it's mostly because of self-esteem issues I had it since I was young and it's carried on with me into my adult years but me being the man I am I bottle it all up and just try not to express my emotions in my mind was raised in knowing if you cry, you're weak. So I tried not to express it in any way I have to laugh to keep myself from crying a lot cuz all I really wish I could do is just crawl under a rock somewhere when there is no one around it just cry myself to sleep sometimes I just feel like if the Lord wants to take me I would not even stress it I would just let it happen I kind of feel like dying in somewhat I feel like no matter what good I do it always bites me my ass I don't understand why it's just what it is I guess