FIRST TIME I SAW A BLACK COCK

I was 17 and at boot camp for the Navy in San Diego, Ca. An Officer came our barracks and we all fell in at attention. One man was in the shower, he came to the shower opening and stood at attention. This was a Black Man, ( my first time seeing a Black Man totally nude) His Black Cock was also standing at attention. My eyes just about fell out of my head. That Black Cock was as long as my arm.I'd never seen a Cock that Big. I'd never sucked a dick before but I wanted to fall to my knees, kiss that Black Cock and then start sucking it. Oh, I wanted it so bad. I knew that if I got caught sucking his Black Cock( if he'd let me) I'd be discharged with a Bad Conduct Discharge. What would my family and friends say. How would I explain. I was just too afraid of getting caught. I wasn't gay. Yes, I'd been wearing girls and women's clothes since I was 7, but I wasn't gay. I just liked the way the clothes felt on my skin.( I've been wearing women's clothes 24/7 for over 5 years now. I'm 73 now, on hormones(my breasts are a C cup)my sissy white clit is under lock and key in a steel cage. I wear a locking slave collar. I still haven't been with a Black Man. I haven't had the joy of sucking a Black Cock. Having a Black Cock stretch my sissy white ass. In my mind I can almost taste that Black Cock. Scream with pain at the thought of Black Cock forcing it's way into my sissy white ass.I really need to be fucked by a Black Man. Forced to taste his Black Seed and swallow it. Feel his Seed being planted deep within me. I'm willing to do anything to have this pleasure. I've been waiting and dreaming for he first time. I live in Kingman, Az. Lindawantabe@***********