Mar 2020 - Frustrations and outlets

I'm not sure I can bounce back from the loss of the hard drive. I lost months of work -- videos that I'd collected, music library, edited projects that were ready to go, and completed projects that were ready to post. I lost all of my past projects -- more than 30 compilations, only some of which are posted on XH. On top of that, there is no playtime with bulls because of the lockdown where me and A live. We are limited to role play and BBC toys. Getting a little more into bondage and daddy dirty talk. But honestly, I'm pretty frustrated. Sharing A with BBC is my sexual outlet, and making videos is my creative outlet. Feeling very pent up right now.
- J