My life

It starts with why I'm here, well the lead up to this is not very pretty, I am not a well like person, l am also not a person with much money, my family isn't very rich a I carry blame like a skate goat, I am good at other things but the reason pornography is my choice is life with me and others , I"ve lost many friends because of women and lost many women because of friends , some women were though to be too good for me so people I thought where friends didn't like that and so I lost them some friends were though to be too much of a friend and some women didn't like that so I lost them. I only wanted to be happy I only wanted to live life, I was very good at football better than most people on the island, due to lack of money and push from family I was not recognized. I did do school but scholarships where reserved for special people, Unfortunately I was not one of them, this blends in to the whole friend and women point I talked about earlier, football had my time and some women couldn't handle that ,I was going to be bigger that some people and some friends couldn't handle that. I"ve had people talk trash about me my whole life they"ve gone as for as getting my baby mother to ***** my c***d due to trash talk and rumors,sad but true. I am not asking for your pity but anyone with love can understand. I"ve had some very hurtful things said and done to me which broke my heart and took my feelings, I still do have lots of love despite the painful things done to my personality , I do not believe in rasicm and I am a very easy-going person. Though I was in trouble with the law after taking a life of gang and v******e, in have been charged with fire arm and ammo still waiting on the case to finish, I'll give an update on that. This takes nothing away from my easy-going personality and optimism, it's how I get myself together and keep my head on in life. Having said that I see porn as a way to forget and move on a way to let people know the ones that thought I lost it to see life is what you make it , I believe in God and I trust in Jesus our Lord and savior as simple as that may sound ,this helps me to rid myself of all negative and hurtful trashy talk they have said about and makes me feel free and manly. I see porn as a way people let their urges go teachers them things about sex and helps them to be themselves , I want to be a part of that. Anyone who sees my vision and willing to help me on my quest to become a pornstar please contact me I am open to all opinions.