Who is CrazyLilPsycho?
more than a few times have I been asked why did I pick that name. Here is that reason!!
So when I was born I was given some shitty parents, I mean everyone says shitty parents like "oh no, my dad didn't come to my football game" well my dad didn't even come in when I was born, I don't mean the room I mean the entire hospital, he couldn't have beer in the facility so he was like "I will be drinking in the car." Not beside the point like I was just born & anything special is the reason he was drinking, no it was an average day. My family was poor, no I could argue that cause my grandparents are fucking rich but my dad was poor. He had a business he ran into the ground because from like the moment he got off to the moment he started working he only sober those hours. Now why would an alcoholic be sober then? Cause he was literally putting his own life at risk if he was drunk at that time with heavy dangerous machines.
So skip the shit I was born into, When I was about 1 my parents caught my sibling m*****ing someone, instead of reporting it, getting them help they just ignored it. So what happens a little later is squarely on their shoulders. When I was 3 my sibling decides to m***** me. Now I know those that are screwed up enough would get off on that like a internet troll would on a star wars discussion board. My sibling didn't m***** me cause of some gross attraction but some fucked up shit called "low hanging fruit" It was a crime of convenience, not attraction to me or something else wrong, it was like "hey, what the hell, let me just fuck up a person's life forever for shit and giggles" So to protect my parents i hid the fact and repressed the fuck out of it.
All of that was before I started kindergarten, speaking of before I started school my dad get deadly sick and mom stayed with them for 3 weeks, they put my sibling in charge with my babysitter who for some screwed up reason wants to join them to m***** me. For 3 weeks I was starved with them feeding me only cum until my parents got back. Now all this still before the age of 5 in a lot to endure but it gets so much more worse.
From the time I started school and I started celebrating Christmas like the only real holiday I enjoy, I realized much later all the presents that I was given from charity so once I got out of the single digits the presents pretty much stopped. Instead to trying to explain that my parents couldn't even afford gifts they put it all on "I guess Santa found you naughty this year" I mean i spent every day the next year being better and better hoping I was good enough. I did my school work as soon as possible. I was trying to maintain a great grade against the struggle until one day I got in trouble. My parents was called into school and my dad took me home and beat the shit out of me from like 11:45 until 3:45 when my sibling came home and defended me right before I was dead.
Skipping a little bit ahead to high school, Now I was bullied since 1st grade because a handful of reasons. I was a little slutty by the definition of the word- I let my class see my pussy on the playground, had an accident in class, ect.. until the friends I did make left me cause they was getting some backlash. Now I was in high school, well starting 7th grade the first of the new school year except the school burnt down and I was at the wrong place at the right time. People considered me an arsonist cause I was there before it burnt down but again nothing was proven and fire chief said it was faulty wiring inside. still didn't stop them and I tried suicide from all the well, life stuff. I was sent to an asylum for testing which I was also suffering from anorexia unrelated, stayed their until the first day of school, well just like a few days before the first.
Now in school I struggled cause everything was ran out of trailers and spread very far apart, but eventually it normalized and years sorta passed until i got an awful teacher who had me arrested wrongfully. Now I won't lie when I say I wanted the bitch dead, she was always so high and mighty and was unfit to be even a substitute teacher with a lack of actual credits that should have allowed her to be in that position. I mean the principal was an alcoholic fucking the secretary who was once his student when he was a teacher in history. Not the only teacher who actually pulled that shit off. I had a history teacher who was well i guess he was just finger banging my school bully Stephanie who called everyone not kissing her ass a slut, even her friends.. Teacher didn't like me cause Stephanie was pulling the strings to make him punish me in class, I was expelled from class cause she and the teacher complained i smelled, what did the principal do he forced me into the showers watching me take a shower... I think i got off of the original topic
That teacher who had me arrested for threatening her life, it was a notebook with detailed ideas on how to torture her. i mean was I going to do it? not really, I was way unable to get the supplies to do it and I was not as corrupted as of yet, I mean I was still wearing some outfits that you would consider very sophisticated for someone who is a k**. Solid colors with no designs, knee length skirts, hair up off my neck and usually glasses cause I was always studying. So when I was in court my parents had me in front of the judge who an attorney who was just preparing to leave when I was facing them. When asked where was my attorney cause it was being charged with a capital office and seeking at least 15 years in prison. My parents was like "we can't afford one" so the judge was like "i will appoint a public defender" oh my dad was like "You don't have to do that" the woman who literally didn't have to stand up said she would do it. A person who worked for money did the entire case for free to keep me from going to prison and my parents really couldn't care less.
When the trial was over and i was put on some very strong medicine and the maximum probation time allowed but I was free. She argued that it was unheard of that they are seeking to punish 1 person cause of some drawn out details. Argued that I had a clean record with no previous charges, nothing, not even violating a curfew. Sending me away would have been a great failure on the courts. When I graduated I wanted to study law and be a hero but I couldn't do that and dropped out pretty quickly, so i just became another person in a rat race living a dull existence free of my parents until my parents separated and my mom moved in with me.
I was happy and free until then but after she moved it my emotional state went down quick, bringing all these awful family events back up, like seeing my sibling again who literally just looked at me dirty and popped off covert jokes that was worse than any knife would could. I went to therapy and met a wonderful person who helped me confront my parents, telling my dad all the hell i endured cause of him. She was expecting something wonderful but my dad just smiled and started laughing. so OK, that was a failure, so went to my mom, Told her everything, being m*****ed, tears rolling down my face and her words was "Umm, what do you want me to say" I mean FUCK!! who says this? who writes the comedy of my life cause i would be the worse critic to them. No what really put me on my life pattern was realizing that this entire struggle of unhappiness came from trying for 20+ years to make these people happy. when both my parents died in 2017 I decided I want to kill off the person they birthed, they didn't care about me
What kind of lazy parent would name you after a fusion of -Leen and her fathers name? What if his name was George or David, how would Davidleen or Georgeleen sound? When i took my hard earned money to buy everyone Christmas and no one appreciated it or even thanked me, when my niece came up to me at 7 and said "I don't have to mind you, your not a person, you don't have feelings" I looked for someone I related too, watching TV as a k** back on the WB with Animaniacs, Looney Tunes, and Batman The Animated Series where I realized I had something in common with one person, one person who tried to make them happy to be tossed out a window- falling to their death and in their last words still not blaming them for the abuse they caused. someone who reflected my some what humor to drive away the non-stopping flow of tears. Someone who refused to see the damage that people was doing to them. Someone who was tired of having a bad day; someone trying to shoot her, run her over or blow her up. Someone who was breaking out of the abuse to try and find her way. Someone trying to regain what ever sanity she has left and I admire like no one can ever really know
So when I was born I was given some shitty parents, I mean everyone says shitty parents like "oh no, my dad didn't come to my football game" well my dad didn't even come in when I was born, I don't mean the room I mean the entire hospital, he couldn't have beer in the facility so he was like "I will be drinking in the car." Not beside the point like I was just born & anything special is the reason he was drinking, no it was an average day. My family was poor, no I could argue that cause my grandparents are fucking rich but my dad was poor. He had a business he ran into the ground because from like the moment he got off to the moment he started working he only sober those hours. Now why would an alcoholic be sober then? Cause he was literally putting his own life at risk if he was drunk at that time with heavy dangerous machines.
So skip the shit I was born into, When I was about 1 my parents caught my sibling m*****ing someone, instead of reporting it, getting them help they just ignored it. So what happens a little later is squarely on their shoulders. When I was 3 my sibling decides to m***** me. Now I know those that are screwed up enough would get off on that like a internet troll would on a star wars discussion board. My sibling didn't m***** me cause of some gross attraction but some fucked up shit called "low hanging fruit" It was a crime of convenience, not attraction to me or something else wrong, it was like "hey, what the hell, let me just fuck up a person's life forever for shit and giggles" So to protect my parents i hid the fact and repressed the fuck out of it.
All of that was before I started kindergarten, speaking of before I started school my dad get deadly sick and mom stayed with them for 3 weeks, they put my sibling in charge with my babysitter who for some screwed up reason wants to join them to m***** me. For 3 weeks I was starved with them feeding me only cum until my parents got back. Now all this still before the age of 5 in a lot to endure but it gets so much more worse.
From the time I started school and I started celebrating Christmas like the only real holiday I enjoy, I realized much later all the presents that I was given from charity so once I got out of the single digits the presents pretty much stopped. Instead to trying to explain that my parents couldn't even afford gifts they put it all on "I guess Santa found you naughty this year" I mean i spent every day the next year being better and better hoping I was good enough. I did my school work as soon as possible. I was trying to maintain a great grade against the struggle until one day I got in trouble. My parents was called into school and my dad took me home and beat the shit out of me from like 11:45 until 3:45 when my sibling came home and defended me right before I was dead.
Skipping a little bit ahead to high school, Now I was bullied since 1st grade because a handful of reasons. I was a little slutty by the definition of the word- I let my class see my pussy on the playground, had an accident in class, ect.. until the friends I did make left me cause they was getting some backlash. Now I was in high school, well starting 7th grade the first of the new school year except the school burnt down and I was at the wrong place at the right time. People considered me an arsonist cause I was there before it burnt down but again nothing was proven and fire chief said it was faulty wiring inside. still didn't stop them and I tried suicide from all the well, life stuff. I was sent to an asylum for testing which I was also suffering from anorexia unrelated, stayed their until the first day of school, well just like a few days before the first.
Now in school I struggled cause everything was ran out of trailers and spread very far apart, but eventually it normalized and years sorta passed until i got an awful teacher who had me arrested wrongfully. Now I won't lie when I say I wanted the bitch dead, she was always so high and mighty and was unfit to be even a substitute teacher with a lack of actual credits that should have allowed her to be in that position. I mean the principal was an alcoholic fucking the secretary who was once his student when he was a teacher in history. Not the only teacher who actually pulled that shit off. I had a history teacher who was well i guess he was just finger banging my school bully Stephanie who called everyone not kissing her ass a slut, even her friends.. Teacher didn't like me cause Stephanie was pulling the strings to make him punish me in class, I was expelled from class cause she and the teacher complained i smelled, what did the principal do he forced me into the showers watching me take a shower... I think i got off of the original topic
That teacher who had me arrested for threatening her life, it was a notebook with detailed ideas on how to torture her. i mean was I going to do it? not really, I was way unable to get the supplies to do it and I was not as corrupted as of yet, I mean I was still wearing some outfits that you would consider very sophisticated for someone who is a k**. Solid colors with no designs, knee length skirts, hair up off my neck and usually glasses cause I was always studying. So when I was in court my parents had me in front of the judge who an attorney who was just preparing to leave when I was facing them. When asked where was my attorney cause it was being charged with a capital office and seeking at least 15 years in prison. My parents was like "we can't afford one" so the judge was like "i will appoint a public defender" oh my dad was like "You don't have to do that" the woman who literally didn't have to stand up said she would do it. A person who worked for money did the entire case for free to keep me from going to prison and my parents really couldn't care less.
When the trial was over and i was put on some very strong medicine and the maximum probation time allowed but I was free. She argued that it was unheard of that they are seeking to punish 1 person cause of some drawn out details. Argued that I had a clean record with no previous charges, nothing, not even violating a curfew. Sending me away would have been a great failure on the courts. When I graduated I wanted to study law and be a hero but I couldn't do that and dropped out pretty quickly, so i just became another person in a rat race living a dull existence free of my parents until my parents separated and my mom moved in with me.
I was happy and free until then but after she moved it my emotional state went down quick, bringing all these awful family events back up, like seeing my sibling again who literally just looked at me dirty and popped off covert jokes that was worse than any knife would could. I went to therapy and met a wonderful person who helped me confront my parents, telling my dad all the hell i endured cause of him. She was expecting something wonderful but my dad just smiled and started laughing. so OK, that was a failure, so went to my mom, Told her everything, being m*****ed, tears rolling down my face and her words was "Umm, what do you want me to say" I mean FUCK!! who says this? who writes the comedy of my life cause i would be the worse critic to them. No what really put me on my life pattern was realizing that this entire struggle of unhappiness came from trying for 20+ years to make these people happy. when both my parents died in 2017 I decided I want to kill off the person they birthed, they didn't care about me
What kind of lazy parent would name you after a fusion of -Leen and her fathers name? What if his name was George or David, how would Davidleen or Georgeleen sound? When i took my hard earned money to buy everyone Christmas and no one appreciated it or even thanked me, when my niece came up to me at 7 and said "I don't have to mind you, your not a person, you don't have feelings" I looked for someone I related too, watching TV as a k** back on the WB with Animaniacs, Looney Tunes, and Batman The Animated Series where I realized I had something in common with one person, one person who tried to make them happy to be tossed out a window- falling to their death and in their last words still not blaming them for the abuse they caused. someone who reflected my some what humor to drive away the non-stopping flow of tears. Someone who refused to see the damage that people was doing to them. Someone who was tired of having a bad day; someone trying to shoot her, run her over or blow her up. Someone who was breaking out of the abuse to try and find her way. Someone trying to regain what ever sanity she has left and I admire like no one can ever really know
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