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Ok, let me get something straight. I am so flattered by all your requests and offers. Even the aggressive and persistent way of asking is a slight turn on. But, I made myself a promise and plan to keep it! I may play some games on here for a cheap thrill but I am not looking to become a slave after a message or two! I am going to stay single and alone for a year or so to take care of me and better myself. There is nothing you can do to change my mind. After my last relationship I need this before moving on. Plus, I am renting to own and if all goes well I will own this place. It is a backup plan for the next time I'm dumped for another. This is not a negotiation! I will not hookup, kik, skype sext or swap photos. I will be happy to stay in contact here and my email emilywilliams2336@email.com. Though, I don't check it as often as here.
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Yes, in a year or two I do want something in the way of 24/7 bdsm imprisoned sex slave. And, I'm not talking obedient little submissive. Don't let the pink collar fool you! I'm only wearing it to get your attention! lol Amyway! I will explain all that in a minute. Before that I got something to get clear. What I am offer is everything. If you don't have the patience to take things slow and deal with a pinpal type relationship through here or my email for now, then don't expect everything! It just isn't going to happen and you're only disappointing yourself. This time is for me right now! If all goes well I will be looking to make the change in as soon as a year. Two atthe latest!
Let me try and explain while the time frame is what it is. Maybe some of you will get it! Just like I want again one day! I was in a fulltime time slave role. As in at all times public and private! And it is also what help to end it! One of the girls that would join us from time to time, offered my ex something I wouldn't. A girlfriend, mother and wife without need constant attention and supervision. I'm just not built that way anymore. In the end I was just getting locked away most the time. Or, pawned off on friends for a six pack that only wanted easy access or entertainment. I would get left nude and bound in bathrooms just to get me out of his way when we went out. When they would meet at home I would be put in my closet, chained outside or somehow confined and out of their way. It didn't end well!
On top of that! I have never been in a spot where I could support myself. Not to mention oen a house. Or, give my sister a cheap place to live when I do take rhe step back into sexual slavery. Plus, it is a backup plan so if the next one goes badly too! Tired of sleeping in my car, which I probably won't have if I find what I'm looking for. If you can't understand that, you've never been homeless!
On top of all that, I need to think about some changes work on with the life I'm looking for before I jump into something or get attached. Which I easily do. So, sorry if I keep my distance for now. Like the pinpal type conversations here. But, there are a lot of things I need to workout and think through. And, when I've figured them all out I will start look8ng for the perfect owner. I don't want to make the same mistakes twice.
For example, I am also taking the time to get back in shape. When you're locked away and fed crap you get a little out of shape. I was gaining weight, had hardly any muscle strength and no energy. I was always locked up and couldn't usually move a lot most of the time. So, you can imagine! I think in my next relationship I want to set some rules on my physical shape and health. I am ok with weight loss and gain if kept health. Food is always up to you but feed me something healthy every so often. I want some type of exercise too! It doesn't matter how I get it! Force me to workout or chain me to a treadmill. Hook me to one if those things that walk horses in circles and whip me to keep me moving. Make me do some type of work or labor if it helps. Something! Starve me for days but not weeks. Confine me as long as you want as long as I receive some type of exercise between. Basicly, you can torment me with it, but don't just forget about me and let me rot.
Here is another issue I had. He wasn't brave enough to keep me as a slave around a lot of his and my friends and family. I was always hidden away from them towards the end and not aloud to seen most of them ever because of it. More time left to rot before tbings even got bad. As humiliating as it is to even think about! I want to be held as a captive bdsm sex toy at all times. The person that gets me would get to decide and limit my access to anyone. But, I want someone who isn't shy and brave enough to allow me to see family and friends at least once every year or so. And, keep and out me as the slave I am to all of them. Rather I want them to or not! Another reason I need a backup house! Once my parents know they may want to disown me. They are a lot more proper and less understanding. Especially my mom. So, you can't be easily humiliated or offended by the judgement of others.
Another big issue and complaint was my income. Obviously, being held as a totally captive slave I can't just hold down a job at Wal-Mart. My ex used to bitch about me costing so much money once I went fulltime slave. I've been thinking about that too and had some ideas to help. Like, instead of loaning me out to friends for stupid shit like beer. Charge them something. All the money would be yours of course. Or, rent me out for slave porn or as a slave for parties and stuff! Sell videos or webcam type shows. Stuff like that! Basicly, pimp me out for depraved sexual stuff and make a profit instead of just bitching at me. But, you habe to be sure I'm safe and will eventually return to the same health and shape I left in.
Now, how about bringing in others! I need to know that the person won't forget about me again. I don't care who else you bring in! But, if you start to fall for them and forget about me I need to know you will find me another owner that can safely provide me with a similar life! I don't want to be pushed to the side and left to rot in chains. There should be some type of agreement like that just in case.
Which is exactly why I want to keep some type of escape clause too! Not only to cover me whem needed. But, it will help keep things feeling more real and helpless. I love it! We can have fun with it to. Like, if I ever manage to escape you have a set time to catch me. If I am just playing or taking a break I will only be allowed to go so far. That can be set by you! But, it will also cover me if you decide to forget about me. Just like my ex, you won't be interested and will eventually make it to easy. If I escape because of that I will head home. You will have until then to recapture me. If you don't it will prove you really don't care. If I get home we must descuse things and see where we set before or if I come back. This way I don't waste months hoping.
And, I don't want to just be locked in a house or basement for the rest of my life. Ling periods is one thing. But, I want to get out every now and then! This means public! I need someone creative and willing to go through the trouble. My ex started out good. Like the rain coat. If I didn't need hands he would strip and bind me. Then put this rain coat on me leaving enough of the top buttons open so if i acted up or move to quickly it would slide off my shoulders. That one was embarrassing amd scary. He would also us shock collars and remote vibrators to keep me in line. He has gone so far as to make me leave nude and drop me off at an outside bathroom to dart in an hide until he came and got me. He has even made me wear cuffs under jackets with rubber bands around my tounge and a remote vibe in to keep me quiet and scared. At the table he would take my pants, panties and anything on my bottom half before removing the jaxket cuffs and rubber bands so I could eat. They would all end up in the car until the end of dinner. It was to keep me seated and behaving. When dinner was over he would get them and I would have to leave the same way I came in. He used ti be exciting and fun. Surprising me and keeping me feeling helpless and owned. Then he just gave up and stopped taking me anywhere. I liked going out no matter how scary and humiliating it might turn out.
A big thing is c***dren! Luckily, I don't think I'm very fertile. But, I want to stay on birth control of some sort. Even up for tying those babies of if needed. I don't want k**s. I want the sex slave life. Being a mother doesn't go with that! I need to know that that won't happen and if some how it does and can't be stopped or avoided. You will tale responsibility or find it a family. I don't want to be know as anything but slave. Definitely not mom! Like I said, I will get a simple surgery if needed. I do not want to be a mother. Sorry if that sounds cold! I'm surprised my still talks to me after the shit I put her through.
And what about body modes and stuff. I've heard a lot about tattoos, brandings and piercings. Not to mention stretching things! I don't want to be one of those warn out saggy freaks you see in the more extreme stuff. So, lets start with branding for example. I might allow one small one marking me as your property. But that's it! Same with tattoos! Maybe a set number and places decided before I give myself to you. Piercings I will allow a few. Like one in my nose and lip. My nipples and a couple lower. Clit and lips lower! But not so many i look like a pin cushion. And, yes you can push things with stretching. But don't go to extremes where im just mutilated and nasty.
She what I mean? I got a lot to try and figure out! Maybe I will do what I did on the last one and start keeping track of it below as I figure things out. You all can help me too! I'm ooen to any ideas or questions you might want me to answer. Chance are my next owner will probably come from here anyway. I want this next time to be perfect for everyone involved. So ask or suggest away! I'll update and rules or ideas I would like to be part of my slavery below as they come.
Until that day comes I am sorry to disappoint all of you. I just hope you understand a little more on why I am keeping my distance until I do what needs to be done and figure some shit out. If you don't then I'm sure there are plenty of girls on here will to do whatever. Good luck! For now I'm going to have to keep my hands on my own leash!
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Yes, in a year or two I do want something in the way of 24/7 bdsm imprisoned sex slave. And, I'm not talking obedient little submissive. Don't let the pink collar fool you! I'm only wearing it to get your attention! lol Amyway! I will explain all that in a minute. Before that I got something to get clear. What I am offer is everything. If you don't have the patience to take things slow and deal with a pinpal type relationship through here or my email for now, then don't expect everything! It just isn't going to happen and you're only disappointing yourself. This time is for me right now! If all goes well I will be looking to make the change in as soon as a year. Two atthe latest!
Let me try and explain while the time frame is what it is. Maybe some of you will get it! Just like I want again one day! I was in a fulltime time slave role. As in at all times public and private! And it is also what help to end it! One of the girls that would join us from time to time, offered my ex something I wouldn't. A girlfriend, mother and wife without need constant attention and supervision. I'm just not built that way anymore. In the end I was just getting locked away most the time. Or, pawned off on friends for a six pack that only wanted easy access or entertainment. I would get left nude and bound in bathrooms just to get me out of his way when we went out. When they would meet at home I would be put in my closet, chained outside or somehow confined and out of their way. It didn't end well!
On top of that! I have never been in a spot where I could support myself. Not to mention oen a house. Or, give my sister a cheap place to live when I do take rhe step back into sexual slavery. Plus, it is a backup plan so if the next one goes badly too! Tired of sleeping in my car, which I probably won't have if I find what I'm looking for. If you can't understand that, you've never been homeless!
On top of all that, I need to think about some changes work on with the life I'm looking for before I jump into something or get attached. Which I easily do. So, sorry if I keep my distance for now. Like the pinpal type conversations here. But, there are a lot of things I need to workout and think through. And, when I've figured them all out I will start look8ng for the perfect owner. I don't want to make the same mistakes twice.
For example, I am also taking the time to get back in shape. When you're locked away and fed crap you get a little out of shape. I was gaining weight, had hardly any muscle strength and no energy. I was always locked up and couldn't usually move a lot most of the time. So, you can imagine! I think in my next relationship I want to set some rules on my physical shape and health. I am ok with weight loss and gain if kept health. Food is always up to you but feed me something healthy every so often. I want some type of exercise too! It doesn't matter how I get it! Force me to workout or chain me to a treadmill. Hook me to one if those things that walk horses in circles and whip me to keep me moving. Make me do some type of work or labor if it helps. Something! Starve me for days but not weeks. Confine me as long as you want as long as I receive some type of exercise between. Basicly, you can torment me with it, but don't just forget about me and let me rot.
Here is another issue I had. He wasn't brave enough to keep me as a slave around a lot of his and my friends and family. I was always hidden away from them towards the end and not aloud to seen most of them ever because of it. More time left to rot before tbings even got bad. As humiliating as it is to even think about! I want to be held as a captive bdsm sex toy at all times. The person that gets me would get to decide and limit my access to anyone. But, I want someone who isn't shy and brave enough to allow me to see family and friends at least once every year or so. And, keep and out me as the slave I am to all of them. Rather I want them to or not! Another reason I need a backup house! Once my parents know they may want to disown me. They are a lot more proper and less understanding. Especially my mom. So, you can't be easily humiliated or offended by the judgement of others.
Another big issue and complaint was my income. Obviously, being held as a totally captive slave I can't just hold down a job at Wal-Mart. My ex used to bitch about me costing so much money once I went fulltime slave. I've been thinking about that too and had some ideas to help. Like, instead of loaning me out to friends for stupid shit like beer. Charge them something. All the money would be yours of course. Or, rent me out for slave porn or as a slave for parties and stuff! Sell videos or webcam type shows. Stuff like that! Basicly, pimp me out for depraved sexual stuff and make a profit instead of just bitching at me. But, you habe to be sure I'm safe and will eventually return to the same health and shape I left in.
Now, how about bringing in others! I need to know that the person won't forget about me again. I don't care who else you bring in! But, if you start to fall for them and forget about me I need to know you will find me another owner that can safely provide me with a similar life! I don't want to be pushed to the side and left to rot in chains. There should be some type of agreement like that just in case.
Which is exactly why I want to keep some type of escape clause too! Not only to cover me whem needed. But, it will help keep things feeling more real and helpless. I love it! We can have fun with it to. Like, if I ever manage to escape you have a set time to catch me. If I am just playing or taking a break I will only be allowed to go so far. That can be set by you! But, it will also cover me if you decide to forget about me. Just like my ex, you won't be interested and will eventually make it to easy. If I escape because of that I will head home. You will have until then to recapture me. If you don't it will prove you really don't care. If I get home we must descuse things and see where we set before or if I come back. This way I don't waste months hoping.
And, I don't want to just be locked in a house or basement for the rest of my life. Ling periods is one thing. But, I want to get out every now and then! This means public! I need someone creative and willing to go through the trouble. My ex started out good. Like the rain coat. If I didn't need hands he would strip and bind me. Then put this rain coat on me leaving enough of the top buttons open so if i acted up or move to quickly it would slide off my shoulders. That one was embarrassing amd scary. He would also us shock collars and remote vibrators to keep me in line. He has gone so far as to make me leave nude and drop me off at an outside bathroom to dart in an hide until he came and got me. He has even made me wear cuffs under jackets with rubber bands around my tounge and a remote vibe in to keep me quiet and scared. At the table he would take my pants, panties and anything on my bottom half before removing the jaxket cuffs and rubber bands so I could eat. They would all end up in the car until the end of dinner. It was to keep me seated and behaving. When dinner was over he would get them and I would have to leave the same way I came in. He used ti be exciting and fun. Surprising me and keeping me feeling helpless and owned. Then he just gave up and stopped taking me anywhere. I liked going out no matter how scary and humiliating it might turn out.
A big thing is c***dren! Luckily, I don't think I'm very fertile. But, I want to stay on birth control of some sort. Even up for tying those babies of if needed. I don't want k**s. I want the sex slave life. Being a mother doesn't go with that! I need to know that that won't happen and if some how it does and can't be stopped or avoided. You will tale responsibility or find it a family. I don't want to be know as anything but slave. Definitely not mom! Like I said, I will get a simple surgery if needed. I do not want to be a mother. Sorry if that sounds cold! I'm surprised my still talks to me after the shit I put her through.
And what about body modes and stuff. I've heard a lot about tattoos, brandings and piercings. Not to mention stretching things! I don't want to be one of those warn out saggy freaks you see in the more extreme stuff. So, lets start with branding for example. I might allow one small one marking me as your property. But that's it! Same with tattoos! Maybe a set number and places decided before I give myself to you. Piercings I will allow a few. Like one in my nose and lip. My nipples and a couple lower. Clit and lips lower! But not so many i look like a pin cushion. And, yes you can push things with stretching. But don't go to extremes where im just mutilated and nasty.
She what I mean? I got a lot to try and figure out! Maybe I will do what I did on the last one and start keeping track of it below as I figure things out. You all can help me too! I'm ooen to any ideas or questions you might want me to answer. Chance are my next owner will probably come from here anyway. I want this next time to be perfect for everyone involved. So ask or suggest away! I'll update and rules or ideas I would like to be part of my slavery below as they come.
Until that day comes I am sorry to disappoint all of you. I just hope you understand a little more on why I am keeping my distance until I do what needs to be done and figure some shit out. If you don't then I'm sure there are plenty of girls on here will to do whatever. Good luck! For now I'm going to have to keep my hands on my own leash!
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