Alwaysignored61

I grew up the ugly duckling, boys never paid any attention to me and I never got asked out until I met a boy that liked me for some reason when no one ese ever did. He paid attention to me which I was not used to. I ended up marring him because he is the only one to ever pay attention to me. He was ok for the first few years but then lost interest and started watching porn. He would rather jack off than look at me. He became verbally abusive and then some physical.  Now my job is to cook and clean for him. He is the only man that has ever given me any attention and I guess bad attention is still attention. I have not had sex in over 8 years and even when my husband did have sex with me it was very quick and missionary only.