billybobj

Where to start.... well, I am a Japanese born stay at home mom in the SF bay area. I'm in my early thirties and am happily married. I work out at the gym to stay fit and I try to eat healthy. My husband and friends say that I am good looking, although I don't have lots of confidence in myself. Although I have three kids, but still fit ;), I have never really been that into sex. Where I grew up it wasn't discussed despite Japan being a very sexualized culture. I think my husband is attractive and we have had good sex for many years and I have good orgasms when my husband eats me out.

A few months ago, when my husband was on vacation, I found his porn folder on our computer. He has always masturbated since we have been together and I thought it was just something guys had to do and that girls didn't need it. Anyways, as he was gone for a week with the kids, I decided to explore all 30GB of photos, comics and videos. I wanted to better understand his fetish and it really helped me come to terms with what I found.

I was pretty surprised at what I found too, he was into big black cocks... well at least he liked them inside of white girls or asians mostly. There was about 99.5% "BBC" porn. At first I was pretty grossed out and couldn't understand as it looked like some of the girls were in pain. I remember that although I was grossed out, I was also a bit turned on by how powerful the big penises looked and the beautiful contrast of the black skin.

After about the second day of looking, I found his comic collection. Being Japanese, this was something I undetstood :). Although most of the comics didn't have very good plots, they were really sexy and the women in them were really enjoying themselves with the big black penises. These comics are where I learned about "BBC" and to call them cocks and not penises. I also learned about cuckolding, female domination and many other things. Like "queen of spades", "butterfly" and"hotwife".

I think it was late at night on the second night that I decided to try and touch myself, as my husband did, when he looked at these things. I started jumping through the collection and started finding some homemade porn clips and it really turned me on. Some of the women were young like me and looked really pretty. Japan is a racist place and they really dont like black people, so it was hard for me to accept my attraction to them, but it was definitely there. After I came the first time while a big "bull" was roughly fucking a white wife that was cumming uncontrollably, I think then I was hooked. I really liked the ones about impregnating the woman too, that is something that turned me on so much when my husband impregnated me.

Anyways, since that second night I've decided to explore this interest I have by making an account. I want to better understand my desires, my body and get ready for the day I take a very large black cock. Although right now I am definately too shy for that ;) so I think that for right now, I am going to keep on using my big black dildo and watching awesome BBC videos.