dmmayer2

Had been married for almost 30 yrs. ,boxed and caged. Always Loved sex, porn, role playing, but wife grew to ignore the joys and went celibate. My drive only grew More. Enjoy Bi,gay and mm2w. Obsequious, very verbal, and Oral in bed, w men; have sort of lost the taste for women in That sense. Still very attracted to women, but I just dont really see Sex with them.

Now, Strap-on Dominant(not pain but pleasure) woman are ,I think, the best. Ive had before and OMG , hence the mm2w.

** My association with men did Not begin like porn depicts,...... YOU KNOW :

"Frustrated Husband watches porn Until he strokes himself Gay" type of idea

No mine began at age 11. I grew up in late sixtys and 70' 's in L.I. , NY; The neighborhood boys were all 3&4 years older. At sleep overs they'd invite me sometimes, if I whined long enough. One Fateful night, They (2) were lying in their cots/ lights low, looking at "dirty magazines, and began playing their own self's, (jerk-n-off). I had no Real idea of what it was, but i could not keep from staring, through my assumed closed/sleeping eyes, at the Magnificent splendor of Male Arousal just an arms length next to me. This Incredible "Feeling" through out me Grew and Grew, until I just had to...........

........I rolled over and sort of , let my sleeping arm, flop onto his leg, he sort of left it and rubbed"My first cock"on my hand. Still pretending like im sleeping(of coarse they knew opposite) my " unconscious " hand gripped and massaged, until finally, both of them "woke me" and they graciously let me play with them and taught me what they liked and felt good., I dont think my 11yo dick went soft till the next afternoon. They did a lot of teaching, and then the other boys too.

The summer of '74 there were A LOT of sleep overs, even during the daytime, i mean they were 14,15 yo boys, 3-4x a day at least. As I and they got older homosexuality in parts of(Italian neighborhood) NY, I mean, it was a thing people got killed over. I, for SO Many Years, had this constant struggle between my intense male attraction and the life expected of me. Hell, I boarded at a Private Military Academy 9-12 grades, and there was NO room for any Gay/Queer shit There. AND, So, on I went...College, married at 23....so on and so forth. Yes i did visit the near-by adult stores (gloryholes) on occasion , but was torn and wracked with so much guilt, that although very intense and sexually charging for me i would not return but a few times/yr, and half of those, Id walk in, nervous as Hell, and Leave before anyone saw me (yes,doctors have problems too.)

Today, I am Not Flaming, Dont Announce it to the world, or have a Rainbow sticker on my truck. My sex is just that, Mine. I feel these days are clearly more Accepting, and to the young XHAMSTER Community, this story is probably "silly", for me however, it has been a lifelong stuggle, and well It feels good to be able to enjoy a part of Human Sexuality, that I would have otherwise Died, Having Never experienced at all.

ThankYou ALL and Thanks for Reading

Made small introduction Photos gallery, if you like please "thumbs up" it....appreciate You.

Gallery Introduction of my first steps out and OUT. I know not very exciting but just started messing with these. Had a previous account, dmmayer, but wife Nixed it, THAT was the FINAL STRAW , Wiped out my secret Porn collection that I spent couple years building .

Anyway, I set this up, and stuff w her was ending , never had time,so its only been the couple months ,Dust settled, Im gone, ALL much Happier.