eeterniti

This is my secret dirty playground. I've got a nice job, a wonderful relationship and satisfying sex life that's very loving, but I can never shake the desire for wanting it dirty, at least not for very long.

I've always enjoyed porn, from the the time I found the stack of my father's magazines tucked away in his closet. I would spend hours reading them until I couldn't take anymore and would race back to my room to masturbate, either from rubbing on the side of my bedroom door, climbing up on my bed and sliding up and down the tall bedpost or humping my special pillow. Don't ask me why I didn't just take the magazine back to my room. My parents were rarely home, especially on the weekends so for the most part it was just me and porn. I spent hours going from one orgasm to the next.

Between this and having my first sexual experience at 6 playing naked with my friend and her two older brothers in the woods behind our houses, I was introduced to sex much too soon. Add that to the fact my parents were swingers, which I'm sure led to their divorce, and its created in me the need for sex that no amount of therapy can resolve. I've long believed my heightened libido is actually hereditary and that I received it from my mother, and she got it from hers.

So for me love and sex and always been independent from one another. Nothing turns me on like the idea of being treated like a whore, perhaps tied and teased until having an orgasm is the only important thing in the world. And that's just one of many fetishes I have and like to explore here. Chatting with a small group of friends has become a vital part of my sex life.

Oh I have other problems too. I'm very much an introvert. For me the idea of hell is being in a room full of strangers and having to make small talk. I've also struggled with OCD for as long as I remember, making me good at my job but difficult to live with. That's why this site is perfect for me, and I only hope they stop screwing it up.

If you read this and think the same I'm very open to new friends, just don't ask for too much and certainly not for any pictures or contact away from here. Remember this is my <u>secret</u> dirty playground, and it should be yours too. So I don't need pics of you, or even your name really. I'll create a picture of you in my head. All I need you to be is dirty with me.