KatTF

Trying to explore the less vanilla aspects of myself, alternately frightened and turned on by it all. I guess I've always seemed and felt ordinary, but fueled by cartoons and superhero comics as a girl, body-horror films as a teenager, and finally the internet and more sexualised things that inside my boring shell is perhaps a better Me. Less meek. More Assertive, More Honorable. More angry, Darker, More perverted maybe. Little more than an base and simplistic beast. Slutty and sexual. The aspect of that Me seep out a little bit, but I wish they'd burst free and consume me. Its more than just mental though, I'm intrigued possibly even addicted to the idea of physical transformations, of my body being remade, forcing me to become something other than myself. I'm not unhappy with my looks, just I wish... when I look at other women, taller, bustier and more muscular than me its equal parts envy, lust and a longing to be that. To be impossible.