lindseytheginger

what in the heck are tributes?

I have a southern accent

I want to have intimate relationships with girls and women. maybe stuff with guys i dont know and not feel guilty about it. I want to have my own place. I eventually want to start a family. I want to tour playing my music and having a large support group of fans. I want to be free to do what I want and able to accomplish anything i mean anything without having to hurt anyone. I mean is that so much to fucking ask for?

I dont want to have to go through satan or the devil or be some sort of slave to the world to get what i want either. fuck that bullshit

I cant have pleasures and have sex and masturbate without fucking satan or the devil trying to take mother fucking credit for it? Thats bullshit!

I DONT UNDERSTAND THIS FUCKING LIFE! Everytime i try to make my own choices i get shut down. It is like this is hell or purgatory or something where I am forced to have to do what this world wants me to do. like if i see a guy or girl that i want to have a relationship with, they NEVER talk to me in person, if i try to talk to them, they always shut me down. It is like i can;t do anything in this stupid world. I want to fucking live and have fun but everyone are fucking assholes. WHY!? what kind of reality is this? its like some sort of fake ass matrix or some shit. like everyone is fucking with me. and even the smallest things that i do to have my own pleasure, its like i feel soooooooo fucking guilty and the world or my mind guilt trips the fuck out of me. like what the fucking hell! Its like everyone outside of myself already knows me and already knows what i am doing, like you are all a bunch of fucking actors or something, forcing me to do what you want me to do. like i can only make decisions that YOU LET me make. Like I have no fucking free will or really any choice of my own. like I HAVE TO GO A CERTAIN WAY IN LIFE....or else no progress will be made.....WHY!? IS THIS TRUE!? But yet I am taught, that YOU ALL get to do WHATEVER the fuck you want!?

Wilt Chamberlin gets to fuck 20,000 women and I can't even have a fucking girlfriend or boyfriend!? explain that shit!? Donald Trump gets to go up and grab womens vaginas and somehow this is okay but I can't even tell someone I want to have sex with them before they go running to the cops for sexual harrassment or some fucking bullshit!? what is with that!? HUH!>!?!?!?

Why can't everyone be wilt chamberlin? why can't we all get what we want and be able to have things...i mean shit if you have to work for them, then let me fucking work a job at making music with a band.......that is a job i will fucking do

IS IT REALLY THAT FUCKING NECESSSARY THAT I GET A SLAVE JOB!? I mean do I HAVE to fucking work a damn fucking useless job before the world allows me to do anything? I don't have the free will, to ask people for shit and they give me stuff? I mean SHIT I want a fucking job doing something with music, even something small like fucking running a soundboard or some shit. does that ever happen??? i'd be a roadie or fucking play bass for someone, does that ever happen? NO. does that oppurtunity ever present itself to me? FUCK NO.....

Why don't people ever want to have a relationship WITH ME in person? I am not talking about this internet shit, i mean, why does no one ever come up to me and be like, "man id love to date you"...am I that fucking ugly or unattractive? what in THE HELL is going on!?

I am starting to really get annoyed with people, like they are starting to piss me off. I go out and try to present myself where i can make friends and be socialable and get dates and shit but I get ignored and people just laugh and talk like everything is okay, its so damn annoying!

im lindsey. aquarius. my boyfriend cheated on me and is being rude to me so i will show him. thats my reason. he should have respected me.

i am 18. like to have fun. looking for men to do what they want to me
so i can get back at my bf. i am white girl and a ginger.
if you dont like gingers then you can whatever