oedipus

No more I am going to stay single. I had my first sex with a lactating mother (my buxom neighbour)in my teens and since then I'm hooked to nursing moms. I enjoy nursing at the milk-filled breasts while having sex. I am mother-fixated and I do not know why it's sinful or shame looking for a surrogate mother. Yes, I want a mommy. In 1994 my partner died leaving me distressed and plunging me into depression. She was my lover, my partner and also acted as my surrogate mother. She gave love my mother withheld. In our bedroom while having sex with her I called her mamma. Not many years left for me to live. I'm in my middle age. I wish I could meet a buxom woman. I want to spend the rest of my life with her. Will you be my mother and lover?